Change

The only thing you can really count on is change. Change is part of life and whether we accept, like it or hate it, it will be there.  In my short life, I've had many different lives and i've experienced many different things. I used to sell granite in Honolulu. I had many roommates throughout the years. I can't even count how many cars i've driven in my lifetime. I am sure I will drive many more. I dated many types of men and experienced many different types of relationships. I've had many cycles of friendships. Many laptops with sets of pictures thrown away and lost.  I've change many times over. I can't imagine how much more there is to do in the years ahead of me. Today, I found that thought exhausting. I am happy. I have a job that i love. Coworkers that understand me. A good boss. I love the place I live in. I enjoy the company I keep. I think to myself. All of this will change too. That is what we can expect out of life, constant change. Some days I am excited with change but today I just feel exhausted at the miles I will have to walk. The people I will have to re-adjust myself to. The partners I will have to start to get to know.  Does that mean that I wouldn't want change? No. Absolutely not. What kind of life that would be. I just don't have to like it all the time. Today, I am tired and I want to feel secure and safe. I don't want absolutely anything to change. At least not for a while. I want growth in the same happy direction.